In honor of Valentines day coming up - I thought I would write about love....
I have always loved with a passion. Loved too hard. Too deep. Too much. Too easily. It is how I was raised. It is part of the circumstances of my childhood. Years of therapy - did I say years? I mean YEARS of therapy have shown me that it is ok to love in healthy ways. And to allow myself to be loved. In healthy ways.
Love comes in many forms. And at different times. Polyamory - Many loves. The ability to love more than one person at once. The ability to be in a relationship with more than one person at a time. So many ways to love and only so many years in our life. So many opportunities to share ourselves. To open our hearts.
An article from Newsweek about it - I thought it was interesting - I agree with some of it -- And not with other parts of it -- http://www.newsweek.com/2009/07/28/only-you-and-you-and-you.html
I am not talking about that creepy polyamory of "swingers clubs" or the men with God complexes that think they are going to repopulate the world with their child brides. I am talking about the ability for adults to love each other. To be monogamous with more than one person. - Oxymorinic I know -- But it makes sense to me. Everything in life does not involve sex, you know. Sometimes, it is just love.
It is sharing of family. The sharing of lifes responsibility. The sharing of raising children. The sharing of financial responsibility. The sharing of deep contented peace. The sharing of spiritual growth. The sharing of your heart. And the sharing of love.
I have promised myself that I would open myself to more love this year. I have promised myself that I would open myself to God. And do my best to let him lead the way. To let him guide my life. To find the peace deep down within.
I have promised myself that for the first time in almost 41 years that I would allow myself to be happy. Truly happy.
These are just a few of my thoughts to -- right, wrong or indifferent - they are mine.
I wish you all love, peace and happiness.
A comment from my sister, Kristie -- I am putting it here because I feel that it is important...
ReplyDeleteKeb,
couldn't figure out how to post comment on your blog... so here goes. Love, Peace, pursuit of happiness... YES!
Great pursuit Keb ~ because we all want to be happy. True happiness cannot always be explained in words because the heart holds the key to happiness ~ and we tend to get in the way, and our mouth gets us in trouble, thinking with our head and not our heart. I've learned true joy comes from within, not without. Poorest of people can be the happiest, because they are free from things. External things... things period cannot make me happy, although I've blindly tried to be happy with things, and failed miserably. My happiness stems from brokenness. A broken spirit, a broken heart, emptied vessel of nothingness, humble heart. So emptied of self, that all you want to do is give to others. Once emptied, you can then fill it with intangibles like, faith, hope, love, peace, gentleness, kindness, temperance, meekness... and the most important of those is LOVE. Bible calls it Charity... 1 Corinthians 13:13
Jesus Christ came to this Earth to show us how to love, and for those bold and courageous enough to open and empty our hearts of pride and selfish "things", and ask Jesus into our heart, the LOVE will flow automatically. Because your "self" has been relinquished to allowing God to guide the way. God is love, so it would follow that if we Know God, we know love. And loving others is part of his plan for us. He has a plan for us from the beginning to the end. Why would we try to alter his righteous plan for our lives. Foolish me. I get in the way of his plan. Simple really... the world (we) tends to make things more complicated than they really are, but I've learned that "Love God + Love Others = HAPPY. The key is humility. We have to step down from the "I can do it" attitude to the "I can do nothing without God" attitude. Change the way you think, and your actions will reflect that change. Simple in theory, harder in application, but worth it in the end. Just my thoughts... and oh, I quote scripture to guide my thoughts, by the truth, because the truth will set you free! If the Bible is wrong, then we're all doomed! It's like an instruction manual for life, read it and your life will change. You will be happy! I AM HAPPIER THAN I'VE EVER BEEN BECAUSE JESUS CHRIST HAS MADE ME HAPPY ~ He gets all the praise and glory ~ I didn't find religion, I found a relationship... I found love. And love will conquer this world of hate. Actually, He found me... He knew me before I knew him. But now, I know! I know true happiness... That's my story and I'm stickin' to it ~ Love you much! Kris
I'm so glad you are allowing yourself to be Happy... Life is precious, meant to live fully... that is often easier said than done of coarse and many obstacles create stumbling blocks along the way... but thankfully Happiness is a choice that we can work on each day... and so much better than the alternative!
ReplyDeleteDawn... The Bohemian