Friday, May 23, 2014

I love my body

Saucy language follows --

This woman is phenomenal.

And I do love my ugly body.  And no, I don't say that for everyone to tell me it's not ugly blah blah blah.   It is.  I was nearly 300 pounds and now I'm not anymore.

I was talking with a friend the other day and he was telling me about his latest relationship and how it wasn't working out. Somewhere in listing some of the qualities that didn't make her the queen asshole of the universe was, "but she's thin".....and a bunch of other shit I stopped listening to.

Who gives a fuck if she's skinny.  Really!?!  SERIOUSLY.  Really?  She sounds like a total and complete asshole.   I don't care what her BMI is.

This really got me thinking about how we view people.  Who am I kidding I always think about these things.  And then I fpund the above link and that amazing woman.  So, I thought some more....

I will NEVER be skinny. Never.  Hell, I'll never be thin. So to some I'll never be perfect.  Good person, asshole or somewhere between.

I've lost over 100 pounds.  Even if I had full body plastic surgery.   Then I'd have a body full of scars.  So no, I'll never be thin, skinny or perfect.  I strive for healthy.  I don't even give a rats ass about doing cross fit, marathons or triathlons.  I just want to live old enough & be healthy enough to see Lilly grow up.  I don't go to the gym to look good in a bathing suit.  I go because I like to eat and want to stay healthy.  I do it to stave off different health diseases.  I don't do it so jackasses will think I'm hawt even tho I'm an asshole on the inside.

If I did a similar photo shoot mine would say my arms with the big batwings and cottage cheese skin give the best hugs ever.  And hold and hug my daughter and carry kids all day long.   My saggy breasts have nursed my perfect child. My back is strong enough to work 90+ hrs a week to help support my family.   My flabby belly has carried babies and made me forever grateful.   My strong and muscular legs with the shrinkles on my inner thighs have carried me all over the world.

So, I do love my ugly body and my amazing and loving heart.  

I hope you love yours too.