Wednesday, October 9, 2013

oh whatta day!

As most good Southern takes start - Yall aint gonna believe this.

Ok. You might. To some its not a big deal. For me - its a huuuuuge giant big ass deal.

No really.

Since I had weight loss surgery in December (and seven subsequent surgeries) Ive had a mental block against exercising. I mean I'll walk a little on my treadmill . Lift some 5 and 10 pound weights every couple of days.

But the mental block.

Ive lost over a hundred pounds. Ive always been able to hide behind my weight. When shit got real. Or I had to face up to something I could hide behind the fat.

And then I wasnt fat anymore.

I couldnt hide behind it. I was stuck out in the open. But I could still say I couldnt do -whatever- because I wasnt in shape/didnt have the staminia/insert excuse here.

Well....Ive given up the last excuse I have. I was up at 5am and in neon lights of Planet Fitness at 530am. Five miles on the bike and circuit training done. Felt like a total rockstar!

It was NOT easy. It was rough. Tomorrow I will be back on it. I'm armed with a plan. 5 days a week in the gym or in a cardio class.

Maybe I can get the last 20-25 pounds off. If I don't lose it at least I will be in good shape!

So get your cheerleading outfits on and help cheer me on!

Its not a short term fix and theres no easy way out. Just degrees of really hard work!!!

Sunday, August 18, 2013

8 months today!

Today is 8 months since I had my revision from lapband to rny. Ive gone from my highest weight of 289 in 09 when I had lapband down to 214 and back up to 259 when I had rny in Dec. Today I am 175. I saw 174 for about 22 seconds. I might see it tomorrow. It comes and goes. Bouncing bacl and forth between 174 and 178. Ive gone from. 26/28 to a 12/14.

Its all very surreal.

Id *like* to lose 25 more. My mind doesnt know if thats possible. Chances are if I had a full body lift Id be at about 160. My skin is crazy. But not as bad as I thought it would be.

It has NOT been easy. I had a leak in the hospital. My stomach and intestines were ripped during a stricture dilation. Ive had 8 strctures since then. But Ive been great for months. I can eat most things. Somethings make me sick. Some dont.

Im back on the losing end again. See bounce back above.

Ive lost weight in a weird way - but normal for me, I suppose. Lose a few. Stay the same for weeks/months. Lose more. Stay more. Its just how its been going. It freaked me out at first. But now it just is what it is.

A few things for newbies-

STOP RUSHING FOOD - You will eat soon enough. Enjoy being in CONTROL of what goes into your mouth for a change. Youve had a life time to eat what you wanted.

CHILL OUT!!! Stalls happen. Stop freaking out.

Stop spazzing over every gram of protein that goes in your mouth. Somedays will be 100 grams some will be 25.

STOP eating processed shit. Limit the shit that comes out of a box. Eat fresh healthy food. NO ONE gets to be 300 lbs eating fruits and veggies (unless theres a more serious condition and the see a dr).

Loose skin happens. Wear Spanx (or whatever brand you like). Deal with it.

If you dont fix WHY you eat you will never fix HOW you eat.

And lastly - just chill out and enjoy the ride.

Life is fun. Enjoy it!!!

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Look at me!! Look at me!! Imma tell you about my NSV(s)!!

No, really. Im waiting the drs ofc today and had time - an hr and a half actually. Babies being born trump my yearly gyno appt. And I realized my legs were CROSSED. No, not just one leg over the other but crossed and tucked waaaay in. Yay me! Had my appt. All went well.

I weigh 174. Dang. Thats crazy. The numbers really dont make sense in my head. I still feel strange in my own body.

My bff and I were out with our girls Sunday. We were in a huge crowd. She kept losing me. I was right in front of her. She kept looking for the big me not the now me.

Last night I took mini me and her friend to the Y. Everything went clustery. The childcare was closed so I couldnt go in the gym. No big we'll just spend al of our time in the pool. Wtf is my bathing suit. Took it out and left it on the dining room table. Double damnit! Ok, at Y and two kids in suits. Ok. Deep breath. I'll go in biker shorts and a sports bra. And I did. Me and two kids and Im wearing a pair of booty shorts and a sports bra. I lived. No one died from seeing my loose skin. The kids didnt noticed. And I had a great time! A hundred pounds ago that would have NEVER happened.

Ive been doing yoga on my own and walking the treadmill. Last night I did some water weights. Ive been doing some ab work. My stomach hurts. I think Im actually building core muscles. Im a little sore.

Life is good. Really good.

Now its time for pics!!

Monday, July 8, 2013


Rewind from today to last fall -

Revision.  I want to have revision surgery.  I want my band out and I want to have gastric bypass.

Thyroid wonky - Insurance says sure - Dr says get tyroid straight first.  Alrighty!  2 months of monkeying with meds.  FINALLY got it right. 

Surgery scheduled for December 18, 2012!

Go into surgery.   YAY!  90 minute surgery takes over four hours.  Lap-band had eroded  Scar tissue had built up.  Finally out of surgery and into CCU.  My heart was skipping beats during surgery.  Fast forward to the middle of the night.  Pain - Holy mercy PAIN!!!

Dr. decided the next morning to go in to see what was going on. I had a leak and he fixed me up. A week in ICU.   I finally got to go home December 24th!

It was an interesting Christmas - to say the least.  I vaguely remember Christmas day.  I spent most of the next week in bed recovering.  There was a lot of family drama.  I am still not really sure what all happened. 

In January I wasn't able to really eat or drink.  I had developed scar tissue around the stoma.  Another surgery.  My stomach/intestine tore during the scope.  Surgery to repair that.  Another week in ICU.

Followed by 5 more dilatations for strictures.  Good times. 

Today is July 8, 2013.  I've gone from my highest weight of 289 to my revision surgery weight of 259 to my current weight of 175. It has been a long 6 and a half months.  Full of crazy crazy things and realizations.

I will update on some of those things soon.  I just wanted to bring everyone up to speed so far!

Have an amazing day!