Sunday, January 24, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
10 years ago today I gave birth to three perfect babies. Perfect eyes, perfect noses, perfect fingers and toes.
They were just too little.
10 years have gone by and today has not gotten any easier. I still miss you SO much. I still think about what you would be like. Libby would look just like me. Avery a gentle blending of myself and her father and Max just like his daddy.
Perfect little babies captured in time. Captured in my mind. Captured in my heart.
I miss you more than you can imagine. Sometimes more than my heart can stand.
I wish we had gotten to spend more than our few short hours together. I wish you had gotten the chance to grow up. The chance to blow out the candles on your 10th birthday cakes.
I miss you Libby, Avery and Max. Happy Birthday.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
Unfortunately, I write like I talk...even worse....I write like I think. I put pen to paper or in this case fingers to keyboard and things just fall out. they do not end up organized in black and white -
But they end up tossed onto the page like laundry that has just come from the dryer....all wadded up in a heaping big pile.
But I do it because I like it -- I am starting to enjoy words again. Enjoying the clicking of the keyboard, eventually rereading the thoughts on the page.
I never make resolutions for the new year -- But I do set goals.
My goal this year is to write more.
To get my life, myself and my thoughts more organized.
To get my body into shape.
To pursue a creative endeavor at least once a week.
To get rid of these last pesky 75 pounds.
To try to have another child.
And to be a better person, wife, lover and mother.
I love the week between Christmas and New Year. It is the week that Ken takes off for vacation and we stay home in our own little cocoon. We eat left overs for lunch and dinner. Cookies for breakfast. And drink grown up egg nog in between.
We stay in our cozy pajamas most days only getting dressed to run to the store or go to friends.
This year it has been especially wonderful. Lilly turned 21 months old on December 27th. She is talking and playing more than ever. She has begun to do "pretend play". She got a HUGE kitchen for Christmas from her Auntie M. She will bring over different concoctions from her little pots and pans and give us bites while making little yummy murmurs.
She is just amazing. She never fails to make me laugh. We are SO blessed.
I wish you many blessings in the new year!